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11:14pm.

January 25, 2012

I love you, but you love the pain more.
I wish you would open up your eyes and see that this isn’t right.
I wish you would see what this is doing to you.
Ripping you apart, inside and out.
Everyday, I’m afraid to look. I’m afraid to see the piece of work he’s left.
But I know what you need is strength. You need someone to tell.
You secrets have been built up for far too long & this has been the only way to let them out.
The blood lets go of all the lies, the hate, the hurt, the past.
And then you sit there and look at what you’ve done. What he’s done.
And you blame it all on yourself.
No one ever listens. They ask, but they don’t hear.
They don’t understand you like I do.
For years, I’ve watched the sad, tormented soul.
I’ve caught glimpses at the source, and I’ve heard fragments of the truth.
I’ve tried to connect, tried to break in, but the walls are so thick.
You’re used to building them up.
But you’re scared of breaking them down.
For a single second I thought I saw a crack in the wall.
A light of hope, a faint smile, a quiet laugh.
Endless conversation with a mind like yours.
I saw what I’ve been looking for all of these years.
What you’ve been looking for.
But as the day passed, and the grin faded, so did the light.
You were left in the dark again.
Left with the sad, tormented soul.
Left with the weapon.
And you used it well.

January 25, 2012

“I’ve got too much on my mind”

“Like what?”

“Just everything. For some reason, I feel torn apart by something by idk what it is.”

“I hate that. I get that feeling sometimes.”

“Yea, I didn’t feel like this until after I met her.”

“Damn…”

“Idk what it means.”

“It means that she means something to you. In that short time, she came into your life & changed something. Now you get to figure out how & what.”

 

Words of a wise friend.

January 23, 2012

“As long as there is air in my lungs, as long as the sun shines, I will be here waiting for the one person. That one person, the one that I would make the earth stand still for. But until that day comes, I will be here, waiting. And waiting. Even when the days die and the world ends I’ll be here alone, caressing death with intoxication. And pretending to be ok.”

It kills me when…

January 23, 2012

the best of people get the worst shit.

It kills me when those people believe it’s what they deserve.

It kills me when nothing I say or do can change their mind.

And it kills me when they’re alright with it.

Childhood Nightmares

January 20, 2012

Chilled dark nights
And endless roads
Every song reminds us of home

Hopeless love
For childhood youth
Drug filled veins were all that we knew

The taste of poison left us wanting more
Sweet addictions left our pockets poor
So empty your mind
And live for our trying times
Shots to our hearts left us with open wounds
We were robbed of our innocence too soon
So breathe it all in
Because we’re living in sin

January 20, 2012

I never thought my light would come from dark
Each day consumed by endless night
A shadow casts an image I don’t know
And my thoughts seem not my own
A man appears within my darkest dreams
He tells me I am the one

From him I can’t escape
He shows me things I’ve been never seen
He tells me I am a fake
He whispers words of sorrow
And I believe most every one
There’s one I can’t stand to think
Because I’m not the only one

He’s waiting for his chance
Hunting his own prey
The anticipation rips me to the bone
And pulls my deepest fears
He knows the grip he holds
But he knows not what he does
And I’ll find strength within myself
Because I’m not the only one

Here I lie with open wounds
My secrets on display
He watches as I self-destruct
I am the only one